📘 Blog Post 21 — “Why I Do So Much (Apparently for No Reason)” ⚙️🍔

📘 Blog Post — “Why I Do So Much (Apparently for No Reason)” ⚙️🍔
by The Architect of Chaos

a few people keep asking me this,
“Samuel, why are you doing all this? The books, the essays, the coding, the so-called side projects, the upcoming uni arc—why not just chill?”

Honestly? I don’t know.
Maybe I’m just allergic to being idle. 😭
Every time I try to rest, my brain acts like it’s been unplugged from Wi-Fi and starts buffering new ideas instead of sleeping.

Or maybe it’s mediocrity I’m running from.
That quiet little trap called “good enough.”
You know — where people clap for you just for existing and you start thinking that’s growth?
Yeah, can’t do that.

It’s not even that deep, really.
I just feel weird knowing I could be great at something and still choosing to scroll memes instead. 🧠📱
Feels like I’m betraying my own potential for cheap dopamine.

And no, it’s not some villain origin story.
I’m not sitting in a dark room plotting my rise or anything (most of the time).
I just like building stuff — systems, stories, chaos that makes sense.
It keeps me sane. Or at least productive while insane. ⚙️

Sometimes I think I do all this because being normal sounds exhausting.
Too many instructions. Too many trends.
At least chaos has personality.

So yeah, maybe I write too much, plan too far, and call hobbies “projects.”
But it’s either that or sit around pretending “average” is a personality trait.

It’s not ambition. It’s self-defense.
Against boredom. Against regression. Against being mid when I could be magic. ✨

— The Architect of Chaos
“Not chasing fame. Just avoiding the side quest called mediocrity.” 🕯️💻🍊